Never Gone



Today, I'm going to share with you a masterpiece (without any exaggeration). It is probably one of the nicest songs about Jesus and faith that's ever written, in my honest opinion. This song pulled some strings in my heart and I loved it. That feeling when the world seemed to be against you and you're feeling left out, pathetic and alone? Cheer up! You are special and He loves you so much and that's all you need to know. You are never going to be alone. Never.

Dear Friend,




I really would want to do a review of this film that I have previously seen, but I suck at making one. Or at least the formal one. So here, bear with me as I rave about "The Perks of Being A Wallflower" the April way. ;)

Don't.

Don't be a kid.
Don't be a moody kid.
Don't make me lose my respect.

Don't make me be what I am not.
Don't expect me to be all sweet when you know (perhaps you don't) or I know that I am not.
Not even my job can change who I really am, or not anyone can for that matter.

 I will always be me.
Not perfect, but true to my virtues and beliefs as always.
That's if I really do have good virtues. Hah.
I don't do things to please me, or please anyone.
It is Him that I would only aim to please, you know.
I'm trying to be good, too often that I hope that there'll come a time (there will be slowly but surely) that doing good is going to be a normal thing for me to do. And I'll be closer to my goal. To live in the path that He wants me to be in. To be ready. To be with Him.

 I'm trying to live my life as crazy and fun as possible. You only live once, they say, might as well live it with all your might. Focusing on the happier stuff that I know (that on that part) I am doing too well. I always focus on the brighter side simply because... I wanted to. Do we really need reasons to be happy? Can we not just be, can we? What can we get from focusing on the sad and pathetic stuff anyway? More sadness, probably. Why be sad when we can always choose to be happy? I maybe too optimistic for my own good. Positivism to the point of madness? I am crazy just like that.

Where is this post headed, anyway? I don't even know. This is what happens when I think too much. Random thoughts keep on flowing in and... I lose control of it the thoughts goes from this to that... and to think that I was once a part of our college's debate society and my flow of ideas are pretty messed up... What a shame to our club.

 But this is me. Contradicting. Complicated. :)
Man, I am this stressed?
 I need some outlet.

 Yes. This. Perfect.

 PS: I would want to do a Perks review but I can't find the time yet. Maybe I need to see the film one more time. Wait, I don't have time but I still squeezed this one in? Uggghhhhh. Right. DON'T kill me.

April Says Hello!

It took me some long time before I finally dug in to the idea (and I was not really enthusiastic about it) that my boyfriend for 7 years is calling it quits. Whyyyyyy? :( Multiply, I did not see it coming.

So much for a dramatic intro. But yeah, it's like having a long time friend that you could easily turn to when things around you is not doing quite well. Someone who need not speak, but in a way, understands you. Who would not complain. Who would just listen. Your company when you wanted to be alone. I have just realised how contradicting that previous sentence was haha. But that's just me, I'm full of contradictions meself.

 This whole blogging thing isn't really a new thing to me since I love writing and sharing stuff, be it about films, music that I love and current events. It was some form of release for me, and it helps, to speak our minds sometimes when we get stressed. Post about our rants and all. A handy journal. A digital diary. What I loved about Multiply... its "privacy" of sort (because I have just a few contacts in there) and peace that it brings me that I am hoping I'd find in here, Blogger, too. I don't write to have it just read, I write to express myself. It is also fun that through writing you get to deal and meet people of the same interests as you.

I was torn between making a Buzznet, a Wordpress or a Blogger and apparently I decided to create the latter because... I don't know haha. It's easier in here, I guess. Peaceful. lols. Google-synched. I'll miss Multiply's music, video and photos tab, though. But moving on...

Welcome to my silly new home! History lessons and reminder to you, my friend though, I write about almost anything, sometimes nonsense, sometimes cool *wink*, sometimes revolting and out of this world. But hey, feel free to visit anytime. ;)

April x

...My Sense of Balance.

To you... and you... who will never ever get to read this. Axium speaks my heart.
Take your turn to lean on me
I've leaned on you for so long
Your words, they hide behind your age
My words, they sing you this song

And I fall from this tightrope
That you've walked a thousand times
One step over to step
You're wise beyond your eyes


Walk away, it's your time
Deny the tear in my eye
Your memory will never die
Your memory will never die

At peace I trust in you every step of the way
To stay with me 'til the end of the day
So move on to your tomorrow as we all say goodnight
'Cause you're my sense of balance for the rest of my
life.

Now I'm waiting on the words
That I've never had the chance to tell
So this is my "I love you"
This is my "fare thee well"


Walk away, it's your time
Deny the tear in my eye
The memory will never die
The memory will never die

At peace I trust in you every step of the way
To stay with me 'til the end of the day
So move on to your tomorrow as we all say goodnight
'Cause you're my sense of balance for the rest of my
life, rest of my life
Rest of my life, rest of my life, rest of my life, rest of my life...

Why I Love @SaraBareilles.

Bring the bass on, baby! So.. I am loving this song from Sara Bareilles' Kaleidoscope Heart album called Let The Rain. It's definitely one of my favorites now... because of the bass. Hehehe. Er, partly. Mostly because I am so in love with its message. On her Youtube channel she says she wrote this song "about rebirth. It's a theme in my life that keeps coming up and I hold this ideal near and dear to my heart. We all face different challenges and obstacles and it's up to us to decide how to approach them. I'd like to think I'm someone that has the capacity to be brave, but honestly, it's something I work really hard at. This song is about my most profound fears and was ultimately the tool that helped me move past them. Sometimes we have to brave the rain to get to the sun. xo s" Something that I can really relate with with all the fears and worries about the future that I am trying and hopefully will overcome in time. I cry when I feel like it. I cry a lot and that's normal? Yes. It's my way of release and then yes, it gets me back all the reasons in the world... of why I am still holding on, of why I keep on believing that things will be sorted out and will get better in time, of why I won't let go of my dream, of why I still want happiness to be my major emotion and fight bad vibes. Thank you for reminding me that's it's okay to break down and cry sometimes, Sara. Just thank you.
Now what's not to love about her, really? One of my musical heroines, she'll always be.

 And as for the lyrics...

Late Realizations From The Words of The Master Plumber

I've been thinking about it lately. What have I learned in college that can be useful in my random daily life, really? Does the first 2 lines really have to rhyme? Heh. Aside from Mathematics and the engineering concepts that has been and is being a pain in the arse for the past 4 months in preparation for the board... I think I know what it is. In fact from the time that the words came out of our professor's mouth, I knew I am gonna take it by the heart. Or maybe not. Because I still haven't frigging learned.
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