Twenty-eight.

Hello. I have not blogged in a long while. It's not even because I have been so busy with life, is the thing. I could have updated if I wanted to but ever felt like not having the same enthusiasm towards something? I just don't have the same fire anymore. But the said fire is not lost. It is even burning even more brightly than ever. And I may have been channeling it into another part of my life. 

Speaking of life, I still am at that point where I could not pinpoint where I would want my life to lead. Will we ever learn, though? At this point I just... live. And there is nothing wrong with that, too.

I admire those who gets to figure out what they want to do with their lives early on. I also admire being in the dark to the point of basking in it. It makes you appreciate the light when it comes. 

Birthday month/week per my experience is when all anxiety levels are up. It makes you ponder on how you have spent the past year, how you've probably slacked and/or of how far you've come. I was waiting for that moment, the sleepless night. For crying out of nowhere thinking where I fucked up with my life. For every mistake that I could have prevented if I have put more effort and if I have put my focus on the things that (in the eyes of the curious crowd) matter. Surprisingly, it didn't come.  While the future is still as vague and uncertain as it has ever been, I am in a better place than I was the previous year and I am grateful to be here.

Happier, I am. With my relationships and my mental state. My career? I could definitely work on it. And I will work harder to achieve the goals that I have set for myself. I never go through it alone, anyway. If there is anything I am really sure of, it is that I have Him. 

We'll all be fine.

To challenges.

To living.

Cheers. x

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Ah, I have a couple of backlogs but I cannot wait to share my Taiwan trip! It was a nice experience. Also, matcha stuff are coming your way!