Don't.

Don't be a kid.
Don't be a moody kid.
Don't make me lose my respect.

Don't make me be what I am not.
Don't expect me to be all sweet when you know (perhaps you don't) or I know that I am not.
Not even my job can change who I really am, or not anyone can for that matter.

 I will always be me.
Not perfect, but true to my virtues and beliefs as always.
That's if I really do have good virtues. Hah.
I don't do things to please me, or please anyone.
It is Him that I would only aim to please, you know.
I'm trying to be good, too often that I hope that there'll come a time (there will be slowly but surely) that doing good is going to be a normal thing for me to do. And I'll be closer to my goal. To live in the path that He wants me to be in. To be ready. To be with Him.

 I'm trying to live my life as crazy and fun as possible. You only live once, they say, might as well live it with all your might. Focusing on the happier stuff that I know (that on that part) I am doing too well. I always focus on the brighter side simply because... I wanted to. Do we really need reasons to be happy? Can we not just be, can we? What can we get from focusing on the sad and pathetic stuff anyway? More sadness, probably. Why be sad when we can always choose to be happy? I maybe too optimistic for my own good. Positivism to the point of madness? I am crazy just like that.

Where is this post headed, anyway? I don't even know. This is what happens when I think too much. Random thoughts keep on flowing in and... I lose control of it the thoughts goes from this to that... and to think that I was once a part of our college's debate society and my flow of ideas are pretty messed up... What a shame to our club.

 But this is me. Contradicting. Complicated. :)
Man, I am this stressed?
 I need some outlet.

 Yes. This. Perfect.

 PS: I would want to do a Perks review but I can't find the time yet. Maybe I need to see the film one more time. Wait, I don't have time but I still squeezed this one in? Uggghhhhh. Right. DON'T kill me.