The Z Book

I have actually been waiting for its release since it was announced that he is going to write an autobiography. I am stoked to know what he has to say, of how he is going to sort of explain himself from his actions for the past year but at the same time, I don't have much expectations because although he tends to get misunderstood in his interviews, he's always been this respectful and nice kind of guy so he would not say something deliberately awful towards someone, or at least I hope he would not. He's been the center of so much hate all throughout his career even during his childhood and pre-teens due to being "different". One of the reasons why he's resorted to this project is to have the stories come from himself instead of having it twisted by the media. This is all him: photos, personal views, anecdotes and preferences. Hence, the Zayn book.

Who can say no to that bloody face, though? Not me, apparently. I skimmed the book a bit after claiming off my copy from the local bookstore where I pre-ordered it because he has this look in him that you just want to sort off ogle and appreciate every single time. I am completely blown away by his effortless manliness and beauty; Something that I could not resist even when he is just that innocent boy who's just starting and learning from the biz. 

But he is so much more than that beautiful face.

***This is the part where I'd warn you that there may be some spoilers from the actual book so proceed at your own risk***

Let it also be known that Zayn's autobiography is not a tell-all as it was previously pegged. Some of its contents can also be read from his chapter off of their previous One Direction autobiography (Where We Are) and then there are parts that feels like an extended version of some of the interviews and magazines in which he has been featured recently. If anything, he's honest and that is what I like about it. Give it to this man who can blurt out a few words and unfortunately have his words be twisted into a dig to his former band mates. He gets hate even by mere existing coming from a multi-race, Muslim background, so what is new? He gets judged all the time. But that's how it is and I am glad that he's learned to filter, adapt and focus on what would matter the most and that is pursuing what felt real to him and his own music. I don't always agree with some of his decisions and actions but he has my full support.

The book is just one part of his life, hence, it has that unfinished feels into it and that is alright. There are plenty of years for him to live, to be polished like a diamond in the rough and there are so many new things to experience and to be in this journey with him, I am so up for it. 

I am glad he's focused on the process of creating music among any other things. It makes you feel like you are in this journey of self-actualisation with him during the creation of his successful solo record Mind of Mine released earlier this year.

I believe he is the most honest and vulnerable when he has started talking about his anxieties and how he is working for the better. Not all people can be brave enough to admit their weaknesses and share it for the world to revel in. In a business full of pretentious faces and people trying so hard to please other people, people who acting in a certain way because that is what is expected of them, he is of the rare breed. He is being true to himself.

I feel for all the pressure from the expectations that he's given to himself, to always be able to deliver and give his best for the people who matter the most (especially his dad of whom he look up to to a certain level). I love his feminist and nerdy side, vaguely speaking. It gave me of an idea of where he is coming from. It did not erase all the shitty decisions and the mess that he's previously been in but it has made me respect him all the more and understand him better. 

It made me even proud of who he has become and it's made me look forward to the future.

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