Thunder Chases The Storm Away

I can't remember feeling heavy with emotions until last Monday when I was deciding (probably even over-thinking)  over some important stuff that will make a vast change in my life in the next few years. The storm in my mind and heart has already passed though it still has some drizzles in there but I can manage it better now and going back, it felt liberating and satisfying.

I believe God has a way of showing His love and support to us and I don't know, maybe at that time he's used this awesome band dude to relay His message to me.

Joseph Thunder of The Cab (one of my favourite bassists aside from Urbandub's Lalay Lim) has been active on a social networking site called Twitter and I am well aware how he can be really kind, replying to tweet messages and all and maybe because of my overflowing emotions due to the stressful long day, I had the courage to message him. Well I have tweeted him and other artists before, messaged them random things, but it was the first time to ask something rather personal.

I am in between of hoping and not hoping for an answer. What happened next, though is completely not what I ever imagined that would happen. Blackberry notifications has been a pain in the arse, too that night that I didn't see it right away. And I can't believe my own eyes when I read:

"No, all you need is to little your fears and enjoy what you are able to; Change and work towards self happiness. #ibelieveinu"

I didn't expect to get such response from the man.  It has caught me off guard that he did get to see the message despite a number of mentions that he usually get, and because I have actually already deleted my initial message saying "Needing a word of encouragement from you now :(" because I just felt like it's too much to ask. I mean, yes I am feeling so down that night, but it's not like he has to care or something. I know being a fan has its limitations. He barely even know me. He obviously isn't having enough sleep (or so he's said on his previous tweets). Those kind of stuff were in my head.

What's even surprised me was when I sent my thank you reply to that inspiring message to which he's answered:

"I'm here with open ears and eyes when needed."

I felt like crying just then.

What the heck is going on with the world?? I just can't believe it. Maybe it is something one dis say to make the other person feel better, or maybe he's being too nice or he's being stressed out too that he could relate to my misery that night (morning in theirs)....? I'm running out of reasons and I guess this is a case of letting things be the way it is.

And. It's not even kilig (how does one translate this in english? Uhm.. Fangirl feels, is it?) that I'm feeling anymore but total respect to the guy.

I remember reading an interview/article about how much of a responsibility (whether they like it or not) is being given to a public person; of how  huge the power of every action, every word spoken were. For even the small acts of shaking hands, the hugs... You can make one's day. For every little "Hi" and "Hello", even a smiley/emoji reply can be a continuous torture to their friends because it's like months and years would pass and they are never going to hear the end of it and it's totally fun. Who wouldn't want to get recognize by the people they look up to, right? One should realise that there has to be a thin line between the idols' personal lives and public lives, though. But yeah, a fan can dream.

To the artists, it maybe just words, but to the supporters, it is a kind of advice that'll get you through the darkest times of your lives. I am way thankful that I chose to support someone whose utilizing such power. Joey ain't a superhero but in the hearts of the people that he's touched for being his random self, he's special.

I am not sharing this to brag or anything. I am doing this because it meant something to me and he's helped me get over (kind of) from that "down" moment that night; that it has made me realise a couple of things and I hope that whoever gets to read this could see what I am trying to mean.

Now I have made that life-changing decision that's been bothering me in the past days/weeks and it felt... glorious. I can't elaborate but I am working on it and I can honestly say that I am on my way to that self happiness that Joey's mentioned. Slowly and surely.

As for being a fan, I vowed to support this man through thick and thin. He's inspired me through a lot of ways maybe he is not even aware of (if he's to read this then he'd know lol). He is a constant reminder to pursue things that would make us happy, things that would take us to a world that is completely ours (in his case as I have observed apart from touring/playing bass was when he's onto his sketching and stuff, things that apparently he enjoys the most); I believe he's going to be a great family man someday for he's surrounded by great people: the ever supportive and groovy family, and a very loving girlfriend (I personally think that they are meant to be together because they bring out the best in each other) and best friends; I admire how he can be nerdy with thangs (comics and gaming), be an arse lol, goof around, be a wise adviser, a loving best friend (Salt and Pepper forever.) ... be himself anytime and anywhere. He made me realize that we don't have to try to look too good, to always speak the best words, to try to impress people... we just got to be ourselves. And with that he's got my full respect.

I haven't gotten the chance to meet him yet but I'd thank him personally if I can (that's if they ever come back to Manila) and I vow to support him (The Cab and his other causes) because he deserved it.


PS: Song that's on repeat as of this post is Love At First Sight by The Brobecks just because. Yaseewhatididinthere? Laters!